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Category Archives: What Now? Life After ATI

Finding the Key

18 January 2012, 06:00



When my husband and I were courting, we carefully set our “line” of physical touch. There would be no kissing until our wedding day; handholding was ok after we were engaged. Yes, we were following the “courtship model,” albeit loosely. We had been friends and had a lot contact before we were officially courting. We […]

Clear as Mud

11 January 2012, 06:00



Several years after I ended my formal association with IBLP (the Institute in Basic Life Principles), I did something wrong. What it was isn’t the point of this article. At first I didn’t think much about it, but later that evening, I began to feel guilty. Very guilty. As I had been trained to think […]

Energy Givers, Energy Wasters, and Energy Takers

28 December 2011, 05:00



A teaching we heard often in ATI was the need to be an energy giver. Let me start by clarifying that I firmly believe that we ought to reach out to others, encourage them with smiles and kind words, look for ways to serve, and just generally be a friendly and nice person. But what […]

In The Hands Of Jesus

14 December 2011, 06:00



Isaiah 49:16 See, I have inscribed you on the palms of My hands; Your walls are continually before Me. With Christmas just ahead of me and the teachings of the Institute of Basic Life Principles behind me, one reoccurring thought whirling around in my head lately comes straight from the book of Isaiah: I’ve been […]

The Little Things

30 November 2011, 06:30



I’ve been pondering quite a bit lately about how many “little” things were missed throughout the publications and teachings of the Institute in Basic Life Principles. I’m dumbfounded when I read a passage from the Bible that was well-known from my Advanced Training Institute studies, and realize that I know almost nothing about what the […]

So This Is Grace

16 November 2011, 06:30



We went to a baby shower today. It was a family shower, so there were families there: moms, dads, and kids running around everywhere. In this group of new friends in our new church, we are the only homeschoolers. No one else has ever been exposed to the homeschool subculture. We are novelties to them. […]

Quiverfull or “Full of It?'”

9 November 2011, 06:00



These days, the Duggars are the most well known family to have participated in the Advanced Training Institute (ATI). For those not familiar with ATI or the Quiverfull movement, the prospect of a family having 19 (going on 20) children is just mind boggling. Yet for those of us who grew up in ATI, having […]

Failing Formulas

2 November 2011, 06:30



For 23 years I lived with the understanding that there is a formula for everything: “If you do A-B-C, the result will be X-Y-Z.” If I followed the steps of 1-2-3, I’d have a successful education. If I do exactly these things, my marriage will be perfect. If I operate by a specific code of […]

Eliza’s Journey

26 October 2011, 23:06



I wish that I could tell you the whole story of how God rescued me and healed me, but that would take at least ten posts. I will say this: it was personal, intimate, and totally tailored to where I was each step of the way. God kept bringing the right friend, the right book, […]

Beautiful Redemption

19 October 2011, 06:30



I’ve been thinking about redemption lately. The act of God taking something that is wrong and making it right again. Taking what was originally beautiful but made ugly, and making it beautiful again. And I’ve realized that this has been the theme of my life. I look back on my childhood and grieve for the little […]